A person will, more times that not, find something that will satisfy them until the day they find what they really need. You think of your family. You were raised by and with these people, love these people, and couldn’t imagine being without them. You realize one day that you’ve grown as much as you think you can with them, for now. You get the itch, the urge to broaden your horizons. That overwhelming feeling that you could do more. You feel, now, the only way to get what you need is to get … out, on your own, without the feeling that your origins are watching you. You want to test yourself, see if life leads you back to where you were, or, if it leads you elsewhere. Life is all about experiences and the feelings that ensue. You’ll never know unless you try.
You’d never really been exposed to other cultures minus what you’ve seen on television. You didn’t want to get stuck with the limitation that local television offered, so, you place a pen, point down on a map, on your hometown, close your eyes, and draw a spiral on a map. The very last spot that spiral hits is where your journey will begin.
Well, I suppose your journey actually begins in your hometown. You say goodbye to your family, friends, girlfriend, and the neighbors that never really knew you but know your parents and feel obligated to send you off. They all want to know your plans; and when you tell them, “I have none”, they want to pray over you like you’ve just been placed six feet under. They’ve never experienced the world the way you’re going to. They somehow skipped that part in their lives.
The thing is, you were brought up just the same as your parents and grandparents. Your family wasn’t restricted to conservative, bible-thumping thought. In their younger years, they were actually very independent and creative thinkers. There were college graduates, artists, musicians, businessmen, authors, lawyers, doctors, and military men. How is it they, of all people, didn’t fulfill the urge to just go? You’ve known them their entire lives and they’ve never spoken of their younger years, minus the occasional “back in my day” and the rant that followed. Maybe they remember the time they got in trouble for drinking on school grounds; but the teacher who caught them just took a swig and walked on.
You know that the military veterans in your family have traveled; but it was, more likely, they didn’t want to go. They were part of the draft. The government told them where to go. You know that wouldn’t be a good route for you. At this point in your life, you’ve seen your friends go to the military and get shipped off. Though, they weren’t drafted. They chose this for themselves and, hey, maybe it’ll work out for them. You weren’t really considered a free spirit; but you certainly feel the need to get away from the routine of your upbringing. Doing the daily chores is necessary to keep a clean home; but sometimes, you just want to let things pile up, so, when you do clean, you are ten times more satisfied.
Don’t worry. If you feel things aren’t adding up in your life, you have every right to find what makes you happy. Though some may be skeptical, your family will be there for you when you get back. They sent you off because they care for your well-being. Wherever you go or whatever you do, they just want you to be happy.